MY AFFLICTION OF LOVE

Tired of not having that special someone for me

Someone to make me smile, laugh and be happy

Maybe all this right now is really meant for me

Because of my past actions

That left many hearts in fractions

She don’t like the site of me or even mention of my name

For who am I to play mind games

I was brain washed by the system

The one that calls women bitches and uses phrases like big pimipin

Had me thinking that love was a phat ass and a pretty face

I’ve had these but they left me with a bitter taste

Now I m more concerned about her character than her waist

Her conversation and education

Not just her pretty face

Does she have signs that she could be a good mother

Express her self openly and show kindness to others

My pen freezes up

I sit here stuck

Thinking if she exist and if I could really find her

I close my eyes and see nothing but pain

The world is crazy

I’m still looking for a queen to plant seeds and have babies

I know I’m a good man or maybe I’m not

And now is one of those times to act like I forgot

For God knows all things

And all I can do is trust

Ironically because this is what I want

A lover and a friend

One to whom my time and energy would see no end

I know it can happen

So I take time to clear my mind and prioritize

 Cleaning off my slate

Continue to improve myself, be patient and wait